Cheerful till haywire...

Decided to settle to write the same post for both... so those who knows ah, just pick one and read will do...

2 more days till FEB!

What to look forward (or not) to:

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CNY ~ sian-ness. Long story but I will be rotting at home since I no need to bai nian... And, A.f. is closed for 4 days. So... shall just settle down for something I hate. Go jogging. ARGH!!!!

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Birthday ~ Bigger sian-ness. Lucky party is so out of my dictionary. Just that I will be busying with dinners/lunches with friends and family. And, "sacrifice" my workout to eat. Enjoyment. :) If I grow fat, no one can blame me... cause... It's my birthday celebration. "P.s: That's statement is for my dear pt/friend, Ivy to see... provided she see this..." Cause, so far, I have not lose the 2kg I set with her. hahaa!

So far... my plan...

20th: workout as usual* "See bottom for reason", dinner w. Lynn...

21st: Drag that half baked "heavy color light friend" ger for lunch den workout as usual.

22nd: Lunch w. sch mates den usual... den dinner w dad...

23rd: not sure of my schedule but dinner w Daren and Cy...

24th: Actual day... not sure of my plans too but most likely dinner w mum...

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5 busy days... -_-''' So sad loh... have to sacrifices my tues and wed night usual... hehe... Not easy task for me k... Been sticking to my crazy plans for weeks, mths, until ah... Idk lah. Just dun like to be "recognized" in anyway by others who observes.

Cause last tues I was shocked when this lady asked me if I was from EP tat time? Cause she can recognize me except that I looks different cause I lost alot of weight... I dun even recognize her loh!!! (sry)... Abit scary.

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What else to look forward to... OH ya... maybe piano exam is at the end of the mth... so might clash with my birthday again... so plans might change. WAHAHAHA!

I'm actually looking forward to March instead. More interesting things to happen. :)

*Why my sat is free now? Cause my piano is changed to Thurs morning... So... Now I can attend cb... big challenge for me. Cause, usually my brain is still not awake, just like today. Ended up really very lost. In fact, tried to copy ppl infront of me (chaota) but I also lost when she lost. So it was obvious I wasn't even thinking or memorizing. :)

AND, Lucky I nv go for BB... If not I will murder Caryn. Tell me she going... ended up? She is still at home when I reach pm for cb. haha....

My ankle is giving me problems lately... The number of near sprain/inversion of my ankle is increasingly alarming. Someone ask me to wear ankle guard to protect it. haiz. Saded. And, it is really sad cause it hurts at times.

Another sad thing, I really need to try and cut down on my expenses. I did record down what I spent. Big portion is on food. Cause I have been snacking alot. Food is the biggest culprit. haiz...

But, at least, I can justify I nv anyhow spent on things I dun need. Because I needed new pants due to the... erm... drop in size. :X

Whoever says losing weight means lesser expenses... LOL... Lol to you. drop size means spending more money to replace the clothes.

1 more mth...

Times fly...

1 more mth to 21...

My feelings? Unexpected, yet looking forward to it.

It's already 24 days into 2010...

Sch wise... Intensive lects finished... With a unique ending...

Last lec, was the only lec I listen to and took notes. The review lec was the one where the lecturer ended off with slides of her home and finally, taking a "class" pics where she will bring the memory back to Australia w. her.

Now have to start on my essay. 2 weeks left to do it. And I have no idea how to start. The second essay looks easier den the first.

Piano wise... Not looking forward to it. The major scales still ok, minor scales are still a disaster. Appeggios? Even worst. Don't dare to touch my 3 exam pieces because it's in a mess since I keep playing it and I'm damn bored with it.

Looks gloomy for me. The letter has yet to arrive. The date is still not fixed. I'm worried.

Lastly, I'm still wandering around... Trying to correct my movements but yet still slack off sometimes. Cutting down alot too. And changing plus switching.

Manage to attend hh today... it was fun, with a song that I have too. :)

But, I know I'm starting to get physically tired too.

I know but yet... I can't shake off the addiction.

Today during hh, my left knee starts to hurt suddenly. Looks like once injure, chances of injury will still occurs.

Been listening to certain things. Makes me think. That... I need to put in effort. If not, I will be wasting ppl's time. And start to think... I'm afraid if I mess things up in future... friendship might sour off too. Now... really need to prioritize... I need time to practise piano, do my school work, and... also to read up and practise on what is adviced. :)

Somethings, I can't say... But I feel wu nai. As a 3rd party I say out my pov. But as a 3rd party. I can't do much. Just feel really wu nai like y in a matter of few weeks it become like tat.

I dun want to lose it. Hope it will become better. :(

Updates...

1 week of school has gone by... can't believe how bad I am to blog during lectures but... seriously, although this topic is on tourism, I feel that I have studied humanities, geography, accounting and finance, economics and marketing these days... Including now... 7Ps...

I'm not complaining yet... Feel more in school den ever...
Except, an assignment is going to be due earlier ... haiz...

Been enjoying myself still with exercising... just that now, I start to listen even more. Trying to listen to the music in the classes and also listen to the way they cue. Well... it's a start. And someone gave me much to ponder on. As in what I'm to do aft i complete n have to decide...

Last day...

Last day of holiday...

Is REALLY the start of my study reality tml... :(

Look forward to it, yet feel sian bout it... Now that, my modules counts become 2, 4, 2, 3, 4... Don't understand? Meaning how many modules in each trimester.

Yawn... I'm exhausted. Been overloading myself with workouts... Don't learn, it's WRONG.
But I really love it. I'm sadistic in a way I guess. Really enjoy, cause the classes I go really makes me sweat... :)

Sch tml...... hope I can wake up early to get some breakfast.... But to play safe... i shall pack my bag now... wahaha, I can also go for my 2 usual and favorite classes tml!!!!!! Cause I only have school in the morning...

Oyasumi!!! :)

Speechless and upset

Sooooooooooooo.... Now I really have to take 2 modules for this sem.

Thanks alot for the wrong info given so now, I've got no choice but to take business law... And it's not Singapore law... Is Australia law... Great..... Will be nak to using my crapping skills....

Went to see roadshow... Was able to Siam being drag up as public... Though that DJ whom I think no need to breath at all say I hide behind pillar.... Haiz....

Why I saw no need to breath... He talk with no full stop. Throughout like more then five mins my ear kept buzzing with his voice non stop... Pro!!!

But I was wowed by e cl performance e most... No offense... :) it's something we dun see usually... :)

Went down to settle my sch stuff aft that... Including taking my cards and buying my txbk... Grand total of 116 bucks... My card looks horrible because i used my makeover pic... which was taken last april where I was very fat. And I did not have other photos to use so I took that.

Haiz... Was feeling really down and upset bout e wrong info given to me that I was totally shopping moodily at tiong bahru plaza... And I ate mac and aft that ate chawamushi and sushi... Within 1 hr...

It's scary and wrong that I use food as comfort... Pls dun learn...

This teaches me to settle everything in person with the sch and to CHECK properly a few times next time so it wont be so screwed. I can't wait to graduate next aug, reason being simple, to get away from the screwed up system of the school.

But actually is only when I reach t1, bh, half baked and chaota brighten my day... 2 r being unintentionally funny or funny on purpose... Whichever and 1 listening to me complain... Thanks!!!! Oh and the presenses of Joey and Anna too..... :))))))


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New Year!

Overdue Post I guess............ New Year, was 6 days ago...

My New Year was fun and entertaining... with lots of my self zhi-lian-ing and entertainments by half baked and chaota. :X

And, only a few more days left to start of school...
Excited yet feeling stressful...
And what's funny is that, the previous in charge "forgot" to put a remark to my credit exemptions... Just found out that they thought I'm going to take 2 modules this trimester but have already mentioned that I will use my unspecified exemption on legl1001. Please don't give me this kind of nonsenses again, I want to graduate by next year, not drag on another year because they screwed up my enrollment.

Stress is something that I give myself I guess, cause I'm trying to do too many things at one go...

Also, felt grateful to certain ppl who started to help but I won't deny I feel stressful because of this... I can cfm that half of the stress comes from me mentally, cause I will feel that I will let them down if I did not do well...

And, there's too many things I need to learn... Feedbacks given so I need to work hard on it too...

And Music... so similar to aural... WHICH I'm very bad at... Aural, can I not memorize the words?? How do I find the time signature.... ARGH!

Piano Exam coming up in a month time... Very Stress bout it too... Cause, I'm lazy to practise and I'm losing my interest in it... Damn it. Why Did I want to learn it in the first place!!!!!!!!!!! Knowing I won't have enough time in future yet die die also want. Crazy gal... After taking this exam, I might take a break from it to leave my energy on other stuff.

And, might even consider just learning piano for leisure instead of putting pressure on myself to take exams... HOW!!!! I'm so confused over this matter....

OK... I NEED to prioritize...
First, settle the stupid exam first. Aft Feb, den focus more on my course, now just read through and practise bit by bit. And in April, focus on my sch examination. And aft that, focus on every single exam that's coming my way including the 4 modules that will crush me like siao!!!!!!

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